My experience...
She
tried moving towards anything that felt like the right direction but with each
step she bumped into a wall. Reality suddenly hit her she was trapped; trapped
in emptiness - a dark hole, with no way out.
She
plunged into a sorry state, a pity party to be precise. She was helpless caught
up... tried shielding herself from the world. The only solution she had in mind
was an escape to an Island, shutting herself out from anything that oozed life.
She
was losing her mind, her thought process. Doubt suddenly set in, fear of the
unknown, lost her will to fight for what she believed in; God, her dreams, her
vision and purpose for life. Everything in her mind fell apart, for a moment
her body felt numb.
She
tried to awaken the zombie that had engulfed her but the struggle was real. On
the flip side what she didn’t realize at that point was the fact that God was
waiting on her call, to receive her; He wanted her to understand that He was in
control but that didn’t make sense, she shut Him too.
She
quit the fight, walked out of the battle field went deep into slumber so she
could spare herself the agony; it was too much for her to handle.
Change of mindset
The
change of her mindset was her dawn. She started collecting the pieces and
putting them together, at that point her life flashed in front of her and she
was reminded in flashback the journey that has been. She began putting things
into perspective. Every aspect of her journey mattered after all; each hurdle
and success gave meaning and preparation to her present and future
respectively.
I
put down these sentiments not too long
ago when I became overwhelmed and plunged into meltdown. I believe it is definitely
not the nicest thing that can happen to anyone but it is an inescapable fate
for many and a rare occurrence for a few. Nevertheless it happens and we are
left with no choice but to find ways of coping in such situations.
When
one experiences a meltdown, they freak out, lose control of themselves and this
can sometimes be characterized by depression, crying or frequent emotional
tantrums at the slightest provocation and in most cases the victim withdraws
from his/her normal activities and networks.
It
is a battle of the mind that can be won
Situations
like this catapults us into a state of being that triggers the normal
operations of the brain. The mind fixates on the negative aspects of a particular
area of your life; it’s almost as if nothing else matters... a perception which
is a complete fallacy.
Sometimes
life beats you to the ground, you lose your sense of direction... and are
pushed to an emotional edge; when this happens, get up and STOP! Be calm and try
figuring it out... even if it means taking a day off or going on a vacation to
clear your mind off things, make sure you achieve a balanced state of mind and
keep moving forward.
Before
you beat yourself up and crawl in pity, understand that this is not a disease
but a battle of the mind that can be won. No situation is permanent after all,
and when you thought life didn’t matter because you failed a step towards the
journey of a thousand miles, or because you lost that job, lost love, failed
your family or felt down-trodden... stop, be calm, breathe... you might be
wrong. It all matters!
“The mind is a very powerful tool that can work for or against you. This
battle was every bit as mental as it was physical. I couldn't let the darkness
that came at night control the outcome of my days. I had to be fearless, fight
through the pain, and face the unknown.” Dave Liniger
Written By:
Dorcas Waringa
13/10/2015
